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[Aug. 31st, 2009|12:14 am] |
after a really busy but very fulfilling weekend, i've come up with just one thought:
maybe what we've all been looking for, was right before our eyes, but we were just too blind to see it.
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| revolution |
[Aug. 26th, 2009|07:26 pm] |
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faith is reason grown courageous.
how true. it takes a lot of courage to put your trust in something you don't really understand, and can't feel, touch or see. but for that one giant leap that you decide to take, you will be vastly rewarded.
come on audrey, it's time to take that leap.
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| monochrome; |
[Aug. 3rd, 2009|06:46 pm] |
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while waiting for my notes to finish printing, i shall post.
the humdrum monotony of my life is enough to drive anyone insane. wake up, rush to school cause i'm constantly leaving my house too late, freak out on the bus, squelch thoughts to poke the bus driver to make him hurry up. heave a sigh of relief when i make to school by the skin of my teeth, and make a mental note to self to wake up earlier tomorrow, which eventually gets displaced by seemingly more important thoughts of math and chem and the occassional hunger pang. drag myself through lessons with a crazy bunch of friends, contemplate whether or not to stay in school even longer to study with said bunch of crazy friends, and usually decide against it. come home, stuff my mouth with some form of food and curse myself afterwards for ingesting more unnecessary calories. try hard to get some work done, have diner, more work, write a nice entry in the diary, and knock myself out to sleep afterward. and it repeats...
jc2 kids are like zombies, we walk around in a daze, watch the energy slowly get zapped out of each other, and cling on to any sliver of hope that gets us through the day. no wonder the drinking age is eighteen...
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| girl, you're so fly! |
[Jul. 31st, 2009|11:27 pm] |
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today was the really a 'cherry-topped' ending to a rather humdrum week. =)
i met mel after school today and i swear, i don't know how we derive so much fun together. lol. what was supposed to be a simple trip to buy some spary paint turned into a very interesting shopping trip. haha. so with spray paint in hand, and a smile on our faces we roamed bugis with reckless abandonment, and i must say, it felt really good to laugh and catch up with her. and we both realised that we've never actually gone shopping together even after knowing each other for so long and connecting so well. =P
and for the first time ever, we bought a pair of co-owned shoes. =) haha. don't bother trying to figure out what that means, cause i ain't telling. haha.
after spending nearly all my days around guys that can't stop cracking jokes and swearing, it's nice to have a girlfriend to hang out with and have so much fun with! and, to top it all off, i had a nice conversation with my mum in the car today in what seems like the longest time.
today really couldn't have gone any better. =D
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| acceptance |
[Jul. 24th, 2009|04:53 pm] |
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nobody likes to be lonely, it always feels good to be accepted, to be surrounded by people that you know care for you truly, to have people that will accept you, no matter what your hair looks like, or how you seem to have put on a few kg.
those people, we call them friends. |
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| bravery |
[Jul. 20th, 2009|12:52 am] |
near-death experiences can be pretty mortifying. but i guess they have their good points. treasure your life like there's no tomorrow, smile and laugh and tell your loved ones that they matter.
so to my family, and my friends - jess, melly, nick, sendy, roy, mat, alvin and the rest of the gang, and to you my dear: i treasure every single one of you for making my life so special. (don't worry, i wasn't near death la!)
i hope you have a great week, and live brave! =)
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| great expectations |
[Jul. 18th, 2009|02:51 pm] |
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everyday, every minute, someone demands something from you. time, money, affection, attention.
everywhere you go, someone's watching you (sometimes, watching over you) and ready to judge you.
isn't that just sad?
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[Jul. 14th, 2009|04:40 pm] |
sometimes life throws you a curve ball that hits you right smack in the face, and sends you hurling to the floor on your knees in pain, but you have to get up. dust yourself off and work harder.
i will work harder. it gets boring and mundane, but life can't be all rosy all the time right? =) if you want something fight for it, if you fight hard enough you will get it. no regrets man!
faith, trust and pixie dust.
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| of roses and rainbows! |
[Jul. 8th, 2009|06:55 pm] |
this BEAUTIFUL bouquet of roses was waiting for me when i got home today, courtesy of the one and only lovely boyfriend of mine. =D they are really the sweetest thing i've ever received, and though you may scoff at the idea of flowers, but i say you're just jealous. =) i really cant stop smiling at these bright red roses, and i'm so thankful that i have you and that i didn't give you up, even though we were on the brink of it. i love you endlessly! <3 |
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| falalalala and nuggets |
[Jul. 3rd, 2009|08:02 pm] |
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'oh falalalala, i just messed up my math paper'
haha. oh well, everything's ended and there aren't anymore papers left. phew, it's really tiring studying for one whole week man. really tiring. but i really should do something about my grades. =S
anyway, i had a pretty cool birthday. =D much thanks to all the wonderful people around me! =) so the day before i went to ICC with dearest smelly melly and we had a raisin-covered blast! =D i really love chatting with this fellow cancer-ian cause we crazily share a lot of things in common. =) haha. then it was back home after that to mug hard for chem (which didn't help much in the end i must say =P) and i got a pleasant surprise when nicholas called. LOL i haven't spoken to him in the longest of times, ever since before he passed through those big green camo gates. HAHA. thank you! =) don't worry, i won't be stupid enough to sign on la. ;]
the morning of was spent diligently mugging away for chem, hoping that by some strange magic i would become a pro at organic chem. hey, a girl is entitled to a birthday wish isn't she? =) yup, and a million thank yous to the people that texted me and wished me on facebook =D lol after the disastrous chem paper, sendy mat and roy planted a giant lantern on my head as my birthday present. =D LOL. thanks yo! =) now just gotta figure out where to put it =P
so today also marked a very big anniversary and i'm really glad that i've got you in my life. =) thank you babe! =D (p.s the balloon may be gone, but the smiles still remain) =D
so today was spent poring over a math paper, and then walking through peninsular plaza and bugis junction with the transformers (lol, yes that's what i've decided to call them) haha. lovely lovely holga, one day you shall be mine. i accomplaished my mission of getting smelly's present. =D haha, with the help of uncle sendy. i hope you like it girl! =)
oh, the days stretch ahead before me, but i vow to fill them up productively =) let's go man! =D
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[May. 29th, 2009|11:18 pm] |
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this week's been one long week. maybe it's some sort of cosmic rule that school has to thoroughly tire you out on the week before a term break. man has it been a long week. but hey, i must say it ended pretty well. =) i did something good today and i feel proud of myself =D i hope you feel better dear!
going to school for CAN! marathon with the councillors and the boyfriend tmr =D YAY YAY YAY! looking forward to yummy baked goods and loads of fun. =) HAHA. i think it's a pretty good way to kick off the holidays don't you? with friends and fun and chocolatey goodness. =)
y'know, i'm looking forward to the holidays as my chance to redeem myself from the disaster that has been my results ever since i got into TJ. have you ever had that strong determintation to make something happen? it gives you so much drive and you really can't quite ignore it. =) positive thoughts fill my head now. i hope your holidays go well too (if you're having one that is)
i'm dying and i can't live without you again (dying - five for fighting) |
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[May. 21st, 2009|04:52 pm] |
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YAY! it's nearly the end of the week! =D yet another busy week, but i've been feeling pretty good this week, not much drama. HAHA. i'm so happy about my run on monday! =) thanks a million to mel!
I'm hoping this weekend will shape up well, don't wanna feel humdrum or bored. haha. wish i could go out a little more often. oh well... i know this sounds a little strange but i'm actually looking forward to the june hols to mug my life away. yeah, it's that feeling of 'i only have one chance left to prove everyone wrong' and i'm not going to slip up. well, tutorials beckon, so i shall heed the call and run away now. ciao! |
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| postitivity |
[May. 17th, 2009|11:18 pm] |
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i've had a pretty good week last week. maybe it's relative to the weeks i've been having before, but i'm not complaining. =) i hope this week will be a good one too. =D
let's keep the spirit going man! |
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| rising above |
[May. 8th, 2009|12:40 am] |
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i don't think i've ever felt more tired than i do now. my eyes are barely half open these days cause they're down right swollen, but maybe not seeing would be better. i can't remember who told me this, but i agree that teenagers these days deal with more than teenagers in the past. yeah, who ever wanted so much pressure? i'm nearly gonna blow, but i'll keep my lid on because i'll show you and everybody else what i'm made of and i will make you take back all that you said of me. this is not over, it is just beginning.
i pray for nerves of steel... |
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[May. 5th, 2009|08:18 pm] |
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even when i'm trying, nobody seems to believe me. then why shoud i even try. this just sucks to the max. i hate you. i really seriously hate you. |
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| breathe. |
[Apr. 26th, 2009|11:38 pm] |
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after such a long and emotionally-charged week last week, all i'm looking forward to is some peace and quiet this week ahead. i hope it's not yet another crazy week, no more drama please. my eyes can't handle more tears.
you know, looking ahead to the de-invest this week, i don't know whether to be happy or sad, relieved or regretful. there is no doubt that i've had a great journey as a councillor. no matter what anyone may say about me, or what i did, i personally feel that i've had a good journey. after one year with this bunch of 35, i must say that it'll be hard to live without the council. i've made my best friends in this council, and i've had the best times with them too. =) i really will miss my days as a councillor, but hey, you know what they say "once a councillor, always a councillor". so even though the odds may be stacked high against me right now, i'm gonna put on a brave face and face the days ahead with courage in my heart and a smile on my face. negativity, eat your heart out! |
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[Apr. 12th, 2009|05:09 pm] |
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YAY to an A for PW! =D
haha. this is gonna be yet another long and rather uneventful week in school again. oh boy, i can't wait. i guess today is just one of those days where i'm feeling cynical about everything and maybe i just need a good nap. hmm, but school really doesnt entice me much nowadays, what with tutorials and long boring lectures that never seem to end. but oh well, it's the monotony of life that make every other day seem that much more exciting.
well, i guess the lack of excitement for school can be attributed to not having you around to cheer me up or to walk me home and talking about the stupid stuff we did in school. yeah, sometimes it gets lonely not having a friend around, but just like you said, it's not about trying desperately to fit into a group of people, but just having that one friend that will be there to hear you out and that'll be enough. that is true. who needs to tire themselves out looking for acceptance anyway. it's nice to have, but it can be done without anyhow. =)
so here's to the new week ahead! =) cheers! |
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[Mar. 24th, 2009|12:17 am] |
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tired and exhausted, i want my best friend back.
back to the way things were before. |
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